Another letter...

Have you ever had one of those times that you just have no idea what to say to someone? I’m sure she doesn’t expect anything or much of a response back from me, but I’m still stumped…

I got a FB message from Sam’s step-mom. Being in contact with Emma’s birth families is awesome, cool, weird, and crazy at times. Today I told Brad “BOTH of Emma’s birth parents are (going to be) in prison. Not just jail, Prison!” Its nuts I tell ya.

After getting Sam’s letter today I’ve realized how okay I am with everything that has gone on. If I do cry it is not because I feel hurt or angry, it feeling the loss of a baby. Wanting so badly to have another little one. I feel greedy saying that. I have one beautiful daughter that I could not love any more then I do, but I want more!

You know the saying “I wish I knew then what I know now!” That is what comes to mind after reading Sam’s step-mom’s message to me. She tells me about how Sam lies all the time and about things that have no reason to be lies. Dang, wish I knew this like a year ago! Still, I don’t regret anything. I’m a perfectionist, especially when it comes to writing people, so I’m trying to sort my thoughts and write Sam’s step-mom back…