Wednesday, October 21, 2009

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy

It's been a baby filled week. I was excited as one couple got their baby boy they are adopting, The R's won their trial for their baby and another infertile-ite found out they were expecting! Congrats to you all, really I've been happy for you.

Over 2 weeks ago I was looking at someone I knew's friends blog where she announced that the person I knew was expecting. I've had 2 week to prepare for her to announce the news herself, but still when I saw it and her ultra-sound my stomach churcned! I had a meeting right after that and I felt nauseous the whole time. Why can't it be me? Or why can't I at least be happy for this person? 33 of my Facebook friends are either expecting or have given birth within the past year! and as I was counting I saw another FB friend's new profile pic was an ultrasound!

and 2 close friends have had miscarriages! (sorry that's not good news, but at least they conceived)

Why is this so hard? Will throwing up making me feel better. Hey, at least it will make me feel like I'm pregnant!

1 comment:

Que and Brittany are adopting a baby boy! said...

Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry. I know how much that hurts. :(