Last night while on the phone with my mom she asked, how involved are you letting Emma's mom be in her life? I asked her, what she meant. I have to confess though, I will lie if I feel it is safer too or to spare my own feelings. I know, I know. My mom (AKA my Grandma) and I have a rough past and I just didn't want to deal with it... She asked if the birth mom knew our names? Well, Yeah! I know both sets of parents would FLIP if they knew she knows our last names. But firstly, we are Facebook friends, what am I supposed to make a fake last name just because of her? She also asked me how I keep these conversations with the birth mom private. Now remember my Grandma is about 74 (ish) and doesn't really get e-mail and all that. Especially trying to explain Facebook IM, LOL!
No. I keep saying it over and over again, if she does something, restraining order... how hard is that? Moving on... My mom also asked if birth mom knows were we live. That she does not know. She had told me that she knows where her other 2 kids live so I'm not too worried about it.
We are Facebook friends and we are open and honest with each other. Yes, she has (and still does) made poor decisions. But that has nothing to do with our relationship. We talk about Emma, of course, things going on in our lives and all the things we have in common, which is a LOT.
I have not promised her mom any visits. Although right now I want to see her. She now lives about 3 hours away from us, but we actually go there quit often. Her birth father is in jail and who knows what will happen there. I still have not written her biological uncle back. To be honest, I don't know what to say. Our caseworker told me not to deal with him, but she isn't in my shoes. I want to, I need to, I just need time to prepare for what to say to him. Why do I want to contact him, because he IS her biological uncle. I would like more pictures of her dad, I have some. I would like to know more about him and his family. I'm not opposed to meet someday (with the uncle and her cousin). It has been hard for our family to understand because we are going through foster care and they automatically assume the worst in Emma's parents. I was also recently contacted by one of her birth mom's friends. She wanted to be Myspace friends, okay no big deal, see the new pictures of Emma and call it good. After I confirmed her as a friend she messaged me wants to meet us and see Emma. I'm not ready to go there. I really want to wait until the adoption is finalized before really dealing with all these other people. Is that horrible of me? And how do I tell them without offending them?
Sorry I just started thinking about all this after visiting The R House. I read how Mrs. R deals with things and the way she explains adoption to her little boys, I KNOW it is possible to do this with Emma.
Re. to comment (because I know I don't always read them), I know I need to be more consistent with what I refer to Emma's birth mom as. Because as of right now I am NOT Emma's mom, I guess I still sometimes refer to her birth mom as mom. Because I don't use her name on here I either say mom or birth mom. She wants Emma to call her by her name though. I guess that's my reasoning because I'm not officially her mom yet. And obviously my 8 month old doesn't know the difference. But, yes her birth mom will be know by her name or as birth mom.